Blur Series, 2018
The viewer is looking at digitally altered vernacular photographs that investigate familial relations and loss. I break down and suspend time through the combination of old media and contemporary digital processes. The questionable resolution of these vernacular photographs heightens the contrasted smoothness of the digital blur.
These pieces are all inspired by my sister, Emily, who passed away at birth. Family portraits capture not only the figures in them, but the absence of those no longer with us. The figures that have been altered in these images appear blurred or smudged as a way to physically embody those people in our lives who we’ve never been able to take photos with but often imagine where they would be placed if they still existed. Even though my sister isn’t here, I often look at family portraits and wonder how they would change if she had survived. In this way, the images are a way to act out fantasies and imagine different versions of my family. I am nostalgic for a life I will never get to live with her and that deep sense of loss is something I don’t think can ever be erased, for the better.